외모를 통한 자기 계발과 자신감의 여정

### 외로움에서 변화로: 자기 계발의 여정
* 💔 3년 전, 고등학교를 막 졸업하고 친구들과 연락이 끊긴 저는 엄청나게 외로움을 느끼고 있었고, 그 때문에 **LOI Discord 서버에서 친구를 찾게** 되었습니다.
* 🎮 서버 소개 섹션에서 저는 게이머 여자친구를 찾기 위해 몇 시간 동안 유저들과 메시지를 주고받았고, 결국 **CS:GO를 플레이하는 미국인 여성**과 연결되었습니다.
* 💬 함께 놀면서 우리는 더 깊은 관계를 맺게 되었고, 그녀는 저에게 애정 어린 메시지를 보내고 결국 **자존감이 낮아 보내기를 망설였던 셀카를 요청**하기도 했습니다.
* 😞 겨우 용기를 내어 제 사진을 공유한 후, 제 외모가 무관심의 원인이라고 생각한 그녀가 저를 **외면했을 때** 저는 큰 충격을 받았습니다.
* 💪 이 경험은 자기계발에 대한 열망을 불러일으켰고, **헤어스타일 변화와 스킨케어 루틴 등 외모를 가꾸는 방법**을 연구하게 되었습니다.
* 저는 물을 더 많이 마시고 나이아신아마이드와 같은 제품을 사용하는 스킨케어 요법을 채택했는데, 시간이 지나면서 **피부 상태가 크게 개선**되었습니다.
* 🧔 또한 **외눈썹과 누런 치아 같은 문제**도 해결하고 수염을 제대로 다듬기 위해 노력한 결과 **더욱 세련된 외모**가 되었습니다.
* 🌟 2년 동안 자기계발에 전념한 결과, 저는 다른 사람들에게 대하는 태도에 긍정적인 변화를 느꼈고, **외모를 통한 인정 추구에서 삶의 목적과 의미 찾기로 초점**을 옮겼습니다.

외모 극대화는 그의 삶을 변화시켰고, 자신감을 높이고 검증에서 목적 찾기로 초점을 전환했습니다.

Three years ago, I was scrolling through a certain Discord server, the LOI server, huh? Around this point, I was just about to finish high school, but I'd stopped speaking to most of my friends, and so I was very, very lonely at this point. And so, there was an

introduction section inside this LOI server. Pretty much, you introduce yourself, then you can make new friends, meet new people, you know, find people to play games with. And I, well, I was horny, and I used this introduction section as a matchmaker to find a gamer girlfriend

for myself. Yeah, you can't make this up. I, I spent hours of my day doing this, by the way. Yeah, maybe I'm too open on this channel. One day, I saw a message from a user that said "18F" - F for female, by the

way - "looking for buddies to play CS:GO with." And I, I hopped on that straight away because I, you know, standards, dude. I didn't even need to know what they looked like, and so I instantly, just like that, messaged her on Discord. And this is where the fun

begins. We just started talking, you know, the boring, right, introducing ourselves, "My name is blah blah blah." We got along very, very well. I learned that she was from America, which I obviously am not, but uh, I didn't give a, and so she went hoping a call with me and play

a game of CS:GO, which I was so down for, but I was also very, very nervous. So I put on my deep, sexy voice, and I went in there. We started playing, I got to hear her voice, it was very, very fun. I'm not going to lie, I had, I had a good time.

playing with her albeit you know the server paying the lag I was playing on American servers I'm not I'm from across the world from there but it was fun I didn't give a I was speaking to a girl hell yes that's all that mattered and this became

a daily occurrence although I'd have to play in the mornings for her to to you know account for the the time difference but again I didn't really I didn't really care and a week into playing with her I know we get to start to know each

other a bit better now on a deeper level and we start talking about things that aren't just about video games you know about whole lives we we actually started to get to know each other a bit better now and eventually she started sending me good morning texts on Discord she started

to like me a lot like a lot a lot right I would get good afternoons good mornings good nights bro how I use I was I was getting bombarded with messages she couldn't stop messaging me and I really did like her as well because

again she was the only girl giving me attention at the time and she eventually sent me a selfie of herself for the first time ever with like a Snapchat um text in front of her face kind of blocking it kind of but that was the first time I ever saw her face

and I I mean I thought she was pretty cute she was white um yeah that's pretty much all but here's the thing bro when she sent me that I could tell that she wanted me to send one back right she wanted to know what I look like but can

You guess what I said? Oh, I I I can't right now. You know I I'll send one later. At the time, my confidence was at an all-time low when it came to voice chat. I could speak to girls, chat them up all day long, no

problem, bro. But when anything and everything came to my face, if anything came to my face, bro, I would I would fold. I didn't want anything to do with it because I simply thought I was just very very ugly, like simply put, I thought I was ugly. Hence, while I was that lonely

kid in high school, you know, I didn't really have a very fulfilling social life. I was a kid in the corner of the classroom who's this quiet and so a couple days go past and she keeps on nagging me to send a picture of myself.

What do you look like, cutie? And so this one night she was just sending me so many texts, like she was replying instantly. She wanted to see me that night, and you know I was like, uh, screw it, right? You know, I've been speaking to

this girl for long enough, you know, she's a nice girl, I know she won't say anything bad, uh, you know, F it, bro, why not? I I started like getting the best angles, the best lighting, you know, I took a picture of myself in actual confidence this time because

this was probably the best selfie that I've ever taken in my life. I can't lie, bro. Yeah, bro, I'm going to send her the selfie, and so I did. I sent it to her. I showed her my face for the very very first time, and I was just fantasizing on

what she was going to say oh my God you're such a cutie you're such this oh you're so handsome you're so hard this blah blah blah and a couple minutes go past you know she was replying instantly before or why didn't she reply in

something other so whatever bro 5 minutes go past 10 minutes go past it's fine she's probably just taking a  break on the toilet it's fine it's fine yeah I never heard from her ever [Music] again man what a hit to my self-esteem

bro oh my God you know I wasn't even that sad about the fact that this girl ghosted me what I was actually sad about was honestly the fact that my personality was there but my looks weren't she liked me until she saw my face yeah that hit me pretty hard and

for me this was the last straw well one of the last straws see like this similar situation happened to me quite a few times and I've had enough like honestly I just wanted to prove them wrong for once in my life this made me want to go into the

shadows for a very long long time go ghost and then come back a completely different person to where I was the one who would be able to reject them right I became pretty vengeful because of occurrences like this I became pretty uh hateful towards girls and so one day I

was looking up online how I improve my looks and I came across looks maxing just a quick break though if you are enjoying the story feel free to subscribe to the channel and also feel free to um follow my Instagram as well if you want those two things help me out

a lot so thank you so much for that and we go back to the video okay so this was over the span of 2 and 1 half years or something like that right the first thing that I saw that you got to start doing to look better is to start mewing

apparently this will chisel up your jawline make your jawline stand out more you know you know obviously I didn't see results straight away this this stuff takes a long time but I started mewing however the very first thing I actually did to improve my looks was my hairstyle

see my hair at the time was a pile of  it looked like an absolute mess a bird's nest I've had many many different hairstyles up to this point I've tried short I've tried long medium everything has looked terrible on me at least I

thought everything looked horrible on me and so I looked up how to actually find a good hairstyle for you and everyone on the internet says to find your face shape first because as soon as you find your face shape then you'll know what hairstyle honestly guys that confused

the hell out of me and I simply went back to monkey I just I just experimented right I didn't I didn't use any of this face shape I experimented and so I just tried out a whole bunch of different haircuts hairstyles I had longer hair at the time

so I cut my hair I went short and I thought that looked horrible on me but I noticed something when I had short hair I had flaws on my face and I know that sounds weird but I had flaws that needed to be covered and having short hair kind of

revealed that to me now the first thing I noticed is the sides of my head, they protrude out but you can't notice that because I've got longer hair that's that's covering it, right? I just have a big head and in my opinion it looks

weird. So that's the first thing I realized that I need hair on the side of my head. Second off, my forehead, now my forehead, my hairline is fine right? But for some reason and I'm not even sure why I just kind of like with my hair

slicked back with my forehead visible it kind of just looks weird from the side, don't you agree? So I need a hairstyle which kind of covers my forehead a little bit, that's the second thing. And finally, the back of my head, you definitely can't notice it now but the

back of my head usually is very flat and when I have a shorter haircut it looks very weird, right? It looks weird, it looks like I've just got a flat head that can be just slapped and that kind of leads me to the current hairstyle I have now, kind of long on the

front, longer on the sides, long on the back as well. See how I kind of experimented with my own head shape and kind of saw my flows and kind of based the haircut around that? However, but now I need to figure out how to actually style my hair. See, for my whole life

again, I just used you know products that other people have given me, right? And that doesn't work because everyone has a different hair type and so I've got to find a product for my own hair that actually works for my own hair and I experimented with so many different

things guys, but honestly I just went back to the Organic Roots and I just use hair oil, it's perfect, like coconut oil, perfect for my hair, perfect. But it's most likely not going to be the same for you. And honestly, in terms of styling it, all I do is just wet my hair first and

then grab a bunch of coconut oil and put it in my hair and wait for it to dry. So now I have a better hairstyle. But the next thing to solve is my God awful skin. See, at that time, believe it or not, bro, I don't know why, I literally went days

without drinking water at times. I didn't have a skincare routine. My diet was kind of M.D. Yeah, I didn't even get much sleep either. So that explains why my skin looked like that. So the first thing I did was obviously start drinking a ton of water, at least like 3 L a day. And that

by itself made my skin a lot more vibrant. And the second thing I needed to do was hop on a skincare routine. So I started cleansing my skin every morning and night, and then I started using a niacinamide by The Ordinary and moisturize. And over time,

this actually started to clear my skin, believe it or not. The niacinamide actually really did work. And by this point, my skin was looking a hell of a lot better. I didn't really fix up my diet because I didn't really, I didn't really know back

then, but these two things really did change my skin for the better. Now, the third thing I realized was, um, I had a monobrow, low key. I had a monobrow for most of my life. I, I was literally singing Fancy son right. I had a monobrow and I

needed to shave that you know one should have hair in the middle of their brows bro what is this okay the caveman era no I also had yellow teeth not going to lie and so this was when I started reducing the amount of sugar I ate in my diet I also implemented a

natural herbal teeth whitening toothpaste into my diet this was by Red Seal so I started doing that and over time bro my teeth slowly started to get whiter and whiter although this took a couple months so be patient with this one okay and at this point I was in

Malaysia for my brother's wedding my brother was getting married right and everyone has beards in Malaysia I've tried growing out my beard in the past I've always shaved it off cuz it looked it looked scraggly horrible but this time I'm going to grow it out

and grow it out I did and by the time I came back to New Zealand it looked horrible it looked so unkempt it looked so untidy it looked like a typical Indian guy's beard yeah I'm calling you out but it was only after

a year so 2024 bro when I actually learned how to groom it properly and so how I typically actually groom it is I like to keep the chin a little bit longer than the sides kind of just creates that shape a little bit more and

I learned how to line it up properly as well from like a year ago it looks a lot better now it's been 2 years since I've actually started this journey and I've been mewing for 2 years now I do believe the mewing did make a small

difference, albeit probably not to a crazy amount. Okay, however, I still recommend mewing like 24/7. I still mew 24/7, it's just proper tongue posture at the end of the day. There's no excuse not to mew. Don't break your mew streak.

dumbass. And yeah man, half of this whole thing was honestly just experimenting and I'd like to say I look a little bit different, you know, than I did three years ago. As for girls, yeah, I do get treated better by them now. That's that's without

a doubt, but honestly, guys, since since then my goals have changed, you know, from wanting to attract as many girls as possible because I've simply just been hurt by them. Now, actually, just wanting to find purpose in life, you know, just wanting to find something meaningful to do.

something to strive for every single day, and I recommend you do the same. Don't fall under the look-maxing trap, you know, that your looks are everything in life because it's not. It's really just not okay. And yeah, I love to clown on looks

maxing sometimes, but honestly, it it did really change my life, right? It made me a lot more confident in my own skin and at the end of the day, I think that's all that matters, right? I hope you enjoyed this story. Feel free to subscribe, like

the video, and comment your thoughts down below. If you want to subscribe to my Instagram or follow my Instagram, I don't know why I said subscribe, you can do that right there. Have a good one. Okay, I'll catch you in the next one.

How I made my face completely unrecognisable (you can do it too)

Manish Raul

외로움과 게이머 여자친구 찾기

고등학교 졸업 후 외로웠던 내레이터는 여자 친구를 찾기 위해 디스코드 서버를 이용했습니다.

그는 서버의 소개 섹션을 중매인으로 사용했습니다.

그는 한 여성 CS:GO 플레이어를 발견하고 채팅을 시작했습니다.

두 사람은 시차에도 불구하고 CS:GO를 함께 플레이하며 잘 어울렸습니다.

그는 긴장한 나머지 통화 중에 깊은 목소리를 사용했습니다.

소녀는 많은 관심과 애정을 보이기 시작했습니다.

그녀는 그에게 셀카를 보내며 답장을 보내달라고 요청했습니다.

그는 자존감이 낮아 셀카를 보내는 것을 망설였습니다.

그는 결국 많은 설득 끝에 셀카를 보냈습니다.

소녀는 그의 셀카를 본 후 그를 유령으로 만들었습니다.

이 경험은 그의 자존감에 큰 영향을 미쳤습니다.

그는 사람들이 틀렸다는 것을 증명하기 위해 외모를 개선하기로 결심했습니다.

그는 외모를 개선할 방법을 연구하기 시작했습니다.

그는 헤어스타일을 고민하고 실험하기 시작했습니다.

그는 특정 헤어스타일이 자신의 얼굴형 결점을 가린다는 사실을 발견했습니다.

그는 튀어나온 머리 옆면과 납작한 뒤통수와 같은 결점을 발견했습니다.

그는 자신의 모발 유형에 가장 적합한 헤어 제품을 찾기 위해 여러 헤어 제품을 실험했습니다.

그는 물을 더 많이 마시고 스킨케어 루틴을 시작하여 피부를 개선했습니다.

그는 일자 눈썹을 밀고 치아를 하얗게 미백했습니다.

그는 수염을 기르고 다듬는 법을 배웠습니다.

그는 이제 여자들에게 더 나은 대우를 받지만, 여자를 끌어들이는 것에서 인생의 목적을 찾는 것으로 초점을 옮겼습니다.

그는 외모에만 집중하는 것을 경계합니다.

그는 룩맥스 덕분에 자신감이 높아졌다고 말합니다.