- This thing is Giant. Doing it again. My name is Billie Eilish. Billie Eilish. Billie Eilish. Billie Eilish. Billie Eilish. Billie Eilish. I think it's October 18th, 2017. It's October 18th, 2018. October 18th, 2019. October 18th, 2020. October 18th, 2021. October 18th, 2022. I'm 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20. I have 257,000. 6.3 million. 40.7 million. 67.5 million. 94.1 million followers. 106 million followers on Instagram. All right. Billy's shoe. All right. Speaking of Instagram, I got some ideas. We're gonna do something new. What do you want Vanity Fair to ask me? Boom. Ready?

3, 2, 1. Post. As we wait for these little
questions to come in, let's get to what we're here for. I am feeling really good. It's just so cool to get
to do this every year. I don't know. I feel like sometimes people
are like, you're still gonna, you're doing it like, you're
gonna go back and keep doing. And I just, I love, I just like it. It's just like a really cool, ugh. I just, they mean so much to me. Every year I watch
these and I'm just like, it just feels really, really,
it makes me really happy. I feel hopeful and I feel
happy and I feel in a good, a good spot in my life right now. Nothing like that. Second year, you know what I'm saying? [laughs] I made an album. I did get two more Grammys.

Yeah, the documentary came out. Bond movie finally came out. See, I met the Royal family. I put out a book. I did an Amazon special,
put out a movie with Disney. Crazy. I finally got to tour again. I accomplished and
finished a full world tour. Didn't miss one date,
which was really exciting. I headlined Coachella, which
was so surreal and insane. I headlined Glastonbury. I got an Oscar. Don't let something current
ruin the future or the past. What the [indistinct] does that mean? Like what does that mean? Play it again. Don't let something current ruin the future or the past. Girl. Don't let something
current ruin the future or the past. All right. What's the most important
thing to me right now? Maintaining my happiness,
which I've been experiencing for like the first time in many years. I wanna stay happy. That's a big goal for me.

I love that I said that. I was really scared too. I was like, you know, I
had been really bummed out for a minute, and I just
finally didn't feel like that. And I was so worried,
it was gonna go away. It's so weird that that's me, but that me doesn't know
this me, I don't know. Life is weird. The most important
thing to me now is being in touch with myself and how
I am actually really feeling, and listening to my gut, trusting my gut, my family being good and healthy and happy, and my relationship being
really solid with them. That's what's important to me. Nah. I don't feel. Yes. Yeah. I feel that there is pressure on me, but I don't feel the pressure.
Do you know what I mean? That first year. Nah. Nah. I've always found that
question very interesting because clearly I've had
really different feelings.

towards it. And honestly, like, I
don't know if I ever know because pressure is not
something you can see, and you can't touch it or anything. Like, it's just there. Yeah, I would say I feel
that there's pressure on me. I don't feel debilitated by it. I don't feel controlled by it, but there's a lot of pressure
that goes with all this stuff. So yeah, there's pressure for sure. There's a line in Everything I Wanted that I think about a lot. It feels like yesterday was a year ago, but I don't wanna let anybody know. 'Cause everybody wants
something from me now, and I don't wanna let them down. I just love that line, and it kind of breaks my heart every time
I sing it and hear it. 'Cause that's really the truth, is I don't wanna let people down. I really don't wanna let people down. I ate some vegan, gluten-free stuff,

some cheese, some fake cheese, some fake bread, some fake potatoes. Fake potatoes. What? I had a burrito with a gluten-free tortilla. And then, hummus with a gluten-free tortilla. [laughs] Okay. I had a berry bowl, homemade acai bowl that my mama made. And then, I came here and I had a bagel of cream cheese, a gluten-free bagel with vegan cream cheese. Bagel. So, guess what I ate? Three big burritos would include free tortilla. Burritos are bomb. I have a big Louis Vuitton blanket above my bed. And then, above the other side of my bed. It's a big poster that has all my friends' signatures on it, and I have like lights above my bed and a canopy. That's true. Like hell, it looks like hell. Like really like, dope hell though. It's like there's just red lighting everywhere.

I have a bunch of Gucci
fabric hanging from one side. So high beast. I can't even believe myself. It's like spooky and sexy. It's dope. I'm literally shut the [indistinct] up. Bless my little heart though. There's so much of me from that age that is out there that exists for people to
go and look at and see. And then, there's footage
like this that nobody's ever seen before, and I'm like,
yeah, nobody's seen that. But now, now it's gonna be out too. Just more footage of me
being a little idiot at 16. My bedroom now is a different
bedroom in a different house. I had a show in New
Zealand pretty recently. Kind of all of the walls
work glass, and it was like, so outside you could
see everybody outside. And I was like, I don't care. So, I like ran away
from the security guards.

and all the people, and I went
and I slammed open the door, and I hugged all of them
and just like was with them. That was a really amazing moment. Look at my little snaggle tooth. Yeah, that was one of my favorites. That was a, that was a good one. I felt. I think about that one a
lot actually to this day. Right now, in this period of time, I
feel so connected to the fans, whatever you wanna call them, in a way that I just, ah, it feels so good. I can't even tell. It feels so [indistinct] good. Like it's just, I just feel solid. Sometimes people say things
that really mean a lot to me. Like one at one point I was out there, and somebody grabbed me
really hard, and it hurt, and someone else that
was nearby kind of like literally like someone in the crowd. And it was so loud, but this
person just kind of was looking

at me in this way, and I
was like, looked at them, and they were like, are you okay? And I was like, yeah, I'm good. And it was just like such a small moment. But it was really, it was really nice. Made me feel good. Oh my God. Gosh. That's a great question. Um. Maybe trust me. I'm in control. I'm in control. I'm in charge. I know what I'm doing. I'm okay. I'm, I'm Like, you can trust me. I'm not going anywhere. I'm not gonna be gone,
you know, unless I die, then I'm gonna be gone. So, you're gonna have to deal
with that if that happens. But we'll see. Yes, like my whole,
everything, all of the clothes I have are free. All the
shoes I have are free. I get socks for free. Clothing, shoes, rings, jewelry.

I was just so like, I can't. You know what? It's so funny that the people that shouldn't
be getting free stuff be getting free stuff. So, what I kind of try to do
is just give it to my friends. I've been more in my life just
like going and getting things that I actually really want, instead of just taking stuff that's free. I don't have an entourage. I would love one, but
I'm 16 and right now, it's just my family, which I'm okay with. I'm okay with having that
while I can. You know when I don't really need that. When I can't really have
that anymore, I'll miss it. So, I'm kind of okay with it. In life, I don't have one. I have one, you know, I
guess at shoots and stuff, which is really just like my team. But I'm not, you know.

going around the world with an entourage. I'm like me pretty much alone
with some person, right? Whoever I'm with or my family. I mean, truly that's
never really gonna change. My family is like the most
important thing in my life. So, I'm with them a lot. Or I'm just alone in my car. I love being alone in my car. That's my entourage is my car. I mean, he is obviously not
around as much as he was when he lived, when we all lived together. I mean, we see each other all the time. And also now, we're starting
to make music again. We just started the
process of making an album, which is really exciting. So now, we have like specific
days where we see each other which is really nice because you know, you get caught up in life. I'm hanging out with my
brother a lot actually. It's my buddy.

Definitely the homeschool one. Just anything about being homeschooled and like people don't know anything about it. How did you make friends? What? That I mean that question. I've been asked my entire life before I had interviews. It's all, anyone would ask, how do you make friends? That one hasn't been asked in a minute. That was annoying. That was an annoying one. Didn't love that one. I just get tired of being asked like the same thing. I guess I just want creative questions. Like, I think that I would ask really creative questions if I were them. Speaking of creative questions, let's check this Instagram real quick. Here's what you are asking me. Oh, these are good. Oh, these are really good. Least favorite song of your own? Watch. What was your favorite show this tour? Boston. How many songs are you working on? One, currently. Favorite thing about doing this interview?

I don't know. I feel really connected to myself. It's really cool to have these. What five versions of myself to interact with. That's just so insane. It feels like I'm interacting with other people, but also it's me. It's just really cool. I don't know. I really like that. Most growth between years. I've changed more from the beginning of this year until now than I have in the last like five years. I mean, honestly. Your favorite band? I think I gotta just say The Beatles. Burritos or pooping. Ooh. I don't wanna choose. I guess burritos, but pooping is important. Sorry. No. Yes, I do. So no, I don't know yet. I think so. Billie, Jesus loves you. All right, thank you guys for the questions. Back to the other questions. I just wanna, I wanna try to be really in touch.

with who I am because there
was a moment this year when I wasn't really aware of who I was. I was just kind of
following along with like, who I had decided to be. That's true. I was still doing that in this moment. I knew it too. I knew when I was talk**.** I knew when I was sitting
there**,** what was going on. I have a couple other things
that I like to keep to myself that are aspirations for me
and we'll see how they go. Hopefully next year**,** me can without me having to say it**,** and
know what I'm talking about. That's so annoying. I do that all the time. Oh**,** I do that all. Honestly**,** I've done that so many times in these [indistinct] interviews where I'll be like**,** well I can't say that**,** but me in the future will remember. I don't remember. I would like to maybe skydive**,** maybe do like a big

like a bungee jump off a cliff or something. I really enjoy fear. I wanna get an electric car. I wanna rescue some horses. I've had a very big transformation this year with my fitness lifestyle, and it's been a really insane process, and I feel better about myself than I ever have, which makes me feel proud. I worked really hard on it, and I just wanna get really [indistinct] buff. I just wanna be buff. Yeah. So, hopefully by next year, I will be ripped. Biggest rumor though, now that I sold my soul to Satan. [laughs] Oh, that I'm in the third season of euphoria. That's not true. I'd like to be. Euphoria is fire. No, I don't like dating at all. No, no, no, no. Thank you. No, I don't have a boyfriend. I could not have a boyfriend.

That would just be mean to him. I hate things that aren't exclusive. Yep. Yay. Yes, I do. I feel extremely grateful for
the relationship that I was in last year, and I think
he's so much happier now, which makes me really happy. Yeah, I do. And it's really cool, and I'm really excited, and
I'm really happy about it. I managed to get my way
to a point in my life. My life to a point where I
not only was known by a person that I thought was the
hottest [indistinct] alive, but pulled his ass. Are you kidding me? Can we just run of applause for me? Thank you. Jesse running for everyone. I pulled his ass. All me. I did that shit. I locked that [indistinct] down. My whatever they say love language is just physical touch. I just need to be touching
skin all the time. Touching and cuddling and hugging.

and anything skin-related is
really a big thing for me. And other than that, just like freedom. You know, I don't wanna be controlled. I wanna be trusted, and I wanna be able to
have space, and I want love and attention, and equal
admiration is really important. I just am really inspired by this person, and you
know, he's inspired by me. It's really cool. Judge me, please. I don't. And then, one word, [indistinct] no. It's my style. Billie Eilish parody. Anything goes. I was gonna say back to basics maybe, or just like back to me, the old me, I don't know. Something like that. I don't know. Sure. Fruitvale Station. I Origins. Ferris Bueller's Day
Off is a solid choice. I used to watch a movie
when I was a little kid, and it's still one
of my favorite movies.

It's just, ugh. It's just so good. It never gets old. Doesn't age. I love that film. Brock Hampton. Tiara W. Techno. Arlo Parks. The dough. Cake, The Cardigans, Dora. You know who, and then also me. A while now, I've been really having an identity crisis a little. I felt like I was pretending to be Billie Eilish. I felt like a parody of myself. Yeah, that lasted for a bit. Like we, the 2020 Billie was very identity crisis overboard. And then, I was kind of freaked out by that and felt really distant for myself. Biggest thing I'm struggling with now is a specific relationship, friendship that I'm trying to figure out how to not be really angry. I'm trying to learn to not hold grudges, not let it make me treat people weird because of a fear

of abandonment a little bit. It's pretty low. I can sing pretty low. 'Cause I kind of have like a manly voice. Low. C maybe. Ooh. I don't know. I can sing really low. Oh, it's so cool. I can sing really low. I mean, I don't know by heart. I would assume I can probably sing lower. 'Cause I'm older, right? Doo, doo, doo, doo, doo, doo, doo, doo. I don't know. Maybe I can't sing low. Whoa. You good? Oh, there you go. That's stupid. This is my mom. She is sick as a booty. - I don't mind. I can stay here that long. I love it. I love it too. - Hello baby. - Here's grandma. - I love you so much. - I love you so much. Come here, join me.

Hello. I love you, Billie. My sweet mama. Love you dearly, Mama. Come, Heather. Hi. I love you so much. I love you very much. It's fun to be here. Oh, no. Classic Maggie Bird. This. I miss all the YOUs. You miss here, you miss this little kid. How? It's so annoying and mean. Yeah. As hard as it was, I miss it too. You're funny and all the stuff that you make fun of about yourself was special and funny and brave and charming and weird. And oh, mama. I love you. I love you so much. [group applauds and cheers]

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