Hi, I'm winter january. I'm going to film a video of how I've been doing. But my baby, Ggultteok is sleeping here, so I'll sit on the side and film a video.

The house has changed, right? On my Instagram, I've posted it before, so I'm sure some of you will know.

I broke up with him, I got divorced, and now I'm with my dog, the two of us. It's already been a little over a month since I stayed in this house.

I paid my first monthly rent. I honestly don't know how to tell you how I've been doing, so I thought a lot about it.

In conclusion, I think the best way is to just leave the camera on and talk to myself.

I just wanted to talk about it naturally. The last video that I posted in September. Before that video, we talked about divorce.

I filed for divorce one day in August. We filed for divorce one day in August, and I think it was around the end of August. Then, I heard that it takes about a month if you don't have a child after a divorce.

One day in October, we went to get a divorce confirmation. I didn't know there were so many people getting divorced on the same day, at the same time.

We waited in line for a long time. Like, they called a couple and said, "Yes, I'm getting divorced." And we got divorced.

Some of you might be wondering why I got divorced, but I don't think that's something I can mention. We didn't divorce like...

happily or coolly. Honestly, there were so many things I wanted to say, but I can't just say it from my point of view. There were just things that I couldn't maintain a marital relationship anymore.

and that I couldn't share the future with this person. So I made this decision and I brought my dog, Ggultteok, and I'm staying with.

The process was, first of all, I'll talk about it from September. It was Chuseok soon after the divorce application.

During Chuseok, he went to his house for two days, and I was with Ggultteok.

The reason why I'm talking about Chuseok is, I cried a lot then, alone. I took a lot of walks with Ggultteok over the past two days.

I usually do it a lot. I went out to the park because I was so depressed at home.

It was quiet during the day, so there was only two of us. So I cried. And at night I was taking a walk, but you know, if you break up, why do you keep seeing couples?

Couples, family, there were many people who spent Chuseok together. So I cried. I was calm at first, but I think it was a time when my emotions went up.

So that time I cried a lot. Then, I thought I should calm down little by little and find a place to live realistically.

Because we were talking about this, I decided to take the dog with me. (Where should we live? a wandering night) So I decided to find a place to live first.

He stays in the house because Ggultteok needs time to adjust.

We can't go out at the same time. Most people who get divorced go to their parents' side or something, but that's a bit hard for me.

I was thinking a lot about going to a third area, but I didn't have enough time. The thing I was most worried about was Ggultteok.

Those of you who watched my video will know, he takes a long time to adjust to something. I use the expression 'sentimental,' but he's a very edgy dog.

So for me, Ggultteok was the most important part.

If I look at it for 10, 20 years, I think I can make my dog happier and healthier if this dog adapts to the life I live with.

So I was thinking about it, and I actually walked here. It takes about 30 minutes to walk to the apartment with my dog where I used to live.

I'm staying in the same area. Since there was a wide range of walks, he's crouching right now. He's a medium-sized dog.

The apartment I used to live in is here. (In the end, I chose a place where the trails overlap to some extent.) All I wanted was (of course, cheap monthly rent is better), a place that can have a dog and a moving-in notification.

There weren't many studios that could do this.

I went to more than 7 real estate agencies. I ran fast and watched it for a few days. I heard that some people signed a contract without looking at the house where the transfer is reported.

In fact, there were people who signed a contract over the phone without looking at the studio I was looking at. At that time, I could have just moved in with my dog, like oh I have no place to live!

But I had to work hard to find a house and came into this house. I lived alone for 4 or 5 years before I got married.

I've lived in a maisonnette type studio. I didn't prefer a maisonnette type, but now Ggultteok loves the place.

Next time, maybe I'm going to film a video of me introducing this studio where I live with this dog. Anyway, I found this studio and I went back and forth every night with Ggultteok.

I came here during the day too. I practiced walking this way a lot.

Ggultteok's human friend groomer took care of him at my moving day. I was worried because my dog was afraid of others Groomer, who is about to give birth, helped me and Ggultteok.

Even though I can't organize all my stuff, I wanted to set up Ggultteok's things before I bring him, because I know he must be scared.

I cut the mat and put it on the stairs. At the end of the stairs, my dog is kind of long so I was afraid he might miss his step, so I made that.

I cleaned up, bought things I needed, went back and forth, and it was 8pm.

I ran a lot in the evening. He was just walking with the groomer. What's really interesting about this, too, is at first, I told her it's okay not to take a walk with Ggultteok because Ggultteok is strong and fast, and she's pregnant.

But the human friend wants to take care of Ggultteok well, so she takes a walk. First, Ggulttek was running and her stomach hurt so much, so she said 'no run.

' Then Ggultteok turned around and walked. I guess he communicated with her.

That's the first day. I brought Ggultteok and he was scared on the way here. Even though we practiced, what I was disappointed about was that I practiced going back and forth here, but I never came into this building because I didn't know the entrance password.

Take the elevator and walk down the hallway. My house is at the very end. It's the end of the hall, so the monthly rent is more expensive.

But this was the only house, end of the hall house. My dog's very sensitive to people's voices and outside sounds.

Anyway, in the process, he was like going to the vet. He trembled all over with anxiety. It was like his eyes are going to pop out and his breath is really rough.

Ggultteok came in and smelled all of his stuff, but he couldn't calm down, so I didn't even wipe his feet.

And we were crouching together on this cushion till dawn because he's having a hard time. Holding Ggultteok like this, I continued to lay down with my heart on his body like this.

The dawn has come. It was as scary as when I was packing. Until the day before moving out, I can't wait to go out. That's what I thought.

I stayed up all night and moved, but after I packed my things, I was really scared. It was full of my stuff and there were two boxes of Ggultteok's.

I thought about how to live with those luggage and that dog. I was very scared then. After I moved, when I see the reaction of my dog, everything fell apart.

I felt so sorry for him. I felt so, so sorry for my dog. I was so sorry that I couldn't provide him with a better environment.

Very sorry and we brought him together. I felt really bad that he has to live a life where one person he liked disappeared.

I had a hard time during the process. Just like when I first brought him and adopted him, I got used to it.

We walked around with him and gave snacks, but he didn't eat them. I've been keep training on adaptation. After about a week, Ggultteok didn't tremble in the hallway.

At that time... Oh, it's working. I was like, oh my, it's okay now.

You know, his eyes and expression... I'm so sure that he only needs me. This is how I feel. Umm, he's just so trusting of me.

I just felt that this dog is more confident about me than I thought. We were slowly recovering. When I was preparing to move, I got sick.

I found a house by myself and took care of my dog by myself, and the whole thing made me sick. Then after, After moving, I had a severe case of body aches and was unable to speak.

And then when I thought, Ggultteok is getting better, my dad came.

(I met my dad living abroad after 6 years.) That was meaningful to me. You know, him, Ggultteok's dad, we've been together for 10 years, but actually more than a decade.

We were mates in elementary school. We met again as adults. We had such feelings that we liked each other a lot in elementary school.

Met again as adults, I've been dating for 6 years. We didn't have a wedding, but we lived together for 4 years anyway.

I've been with him for such a long time. I.. I liked him a lot. Oh! There was a sound of people outside. It's okay.

He hid himself upstairs. There's a tent-type house there and he'll probably hide in there. Anyway, if I continue talking, the emptiness was huge.

Whatever this guy was... Of course, we still see each other very rarely. Divorced parents say that, like, anyway he's your father, or anyway she's your mother.

I like, it's same for dogs. The two of us brought him here, now it's me to live with him.

but still Ggulltteok likes his dad, and he is Ggultteok's dad. One night, we take a walk together, especially when we go to the vet.

We go together. Also, I don't have a car now, so maybe one day we can go to the dog park together.

Well, the paintings, I've been working on it for several years. Many such paintings were piled up in the house after the exhibition.

I discarded them all. I can't bring them, I don't have a place to store them. Discarded them all. It's very different from when I closed the painting room for a while and when they disappeared. "Will there be a day when I can do this again?

When I stopped painting, someone left a comment asking me to just draw Ggultteok. But it's not that simple. It's a little bit like talking about a person who makes fine art.

It feels like writing a sci-fi novel to someone who has written poetry all his life. A painting is... an artist's note. One's philosophy is a person who builds up the thoughts one by one and eventually tells his/her own story.

It's about telling your story through work.

There was a story I've been telling and there was a story I wanted to continue in the future, but it was cut off.

It became garbage and went to the garbage dump. I paid for the paintings and threw them away. It seems like my whole life has disappeared in those years.

What I wanted to continue was suddenly cut off, a real railroad cut off. I still, I still don't know exactly what to do or how to live. But In the long run, to be with my dog that I love so much and move forward, I need to build up my strength.

Anyway, thank you so much for listening to this story. It won't be easy. After everything passes, everything will be alright.

It will be better. Let's see what's he doing? Ggultteok is... Can you see? Lovely, my dog.

I can't zoom in. I forgot to tell you an important thing, so I turned on the camera again. I'm filming in a weird position right now.

Now he is not Ggultteok-Jang, he's become Ggultteok-Go. Yes, Ggultteok-Go.

Then, see you again. Ggultteok, say bye bye.

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