I want to take a moment to see. I see there are a few people here whom I’m seeing for the first time. Who is here for the first time in my broadcast? Who here doesn’t know me yet? Write to me, or who knows me already, write to me maybe for a moment in the chat how you are today, how you’re feeling, how you’re coming to this broadcast. I would be happy to hear from you today. Ah, Dean writes that he’s feeling more relaxed. Amazing! Yes, I would really love to hear from those who are here for the first time. Exciting! Amazing! Wow, what fun! Ah, Rachel, I see you also asked us a question. We will get to that soon. I’m not feeling well today; I’ve been through some challenges.

Wow, it sounds like it's not easy. I would be happy if later we could delve into this more, and maybe you would like to share more. I hope that by the end of the broadcast, we can bring a bit more value. So, what are we actually going to talk about today? What do we have planned for today? You see, we are going through a period where each person is taking it differently. And Rachel writes that she is doing well; she would love to receive some added value. Rachel, I am really, really happy to hear that. I want to mention that this broadcast connects to two very powerful things I heard that really shook me, and I said to myself, Okay, this is something that really...

It's really worth talking about, and I will also say that the more we share and agree to be honest with ourselves in this broadcast, the more we can undergo a transformation that is more meaningful. Of course, this is also very connected to what we are going through today and how we are experiencing it. Each one of us is going through this period in a slightly different way, yet we are still in some kind of collective consciousness. We will also delve into this today. Not long ago, I saw a video of Tzvika Eina, who learned from Roy, and he spoke about the topic of what we...

We're actually going to talk today about how to take our flaws—what we think is wrong with us—and turn them into a gift that we can give to the world. Now, before I start, I want to mention that this is going to be a very personal process. I would like to hear from you; I know it can be a bit uncomfortable. Those who know me are aware that I love to share. I believe that's the only way to develop. I would like to ask you a somewhat honest question. Is it okay if I ask you a question that’s a bit personal? You can also write your responses.

The answer is just for me; you don't have to do this for everyone. I can read it anonymously, but only if you do it for me like this, if that's okay. I can ask a question that is a bit less pleasant. Okay, I see that you are interested, so I want to ask you what your quirks are or what you don't like about yourselves. While you write to me, I will share with you the things I don't like about myself and how this connects to this broadcast. I will share that even when I come to share with you, I say, Wait, what am I talking about? about things that are all...

There are so many banal or small things happening outside, with war and missiles, and someone here really wrote that they are crying a lot and dealing with many things. But I want to say that it doesn't matter if it's small or big; the question is whether the movement is going up or down. Because even if many times in my life I've had all sorts of problems and I told myself, Oh, these are too small problems; it's not right that these are your problems, as if bigger problems are happening. But it doesn't matter. What matters is whether our movement is down or up. We will delve a little deeper into this.

I see that you wrote that I don't know how to set boundaries. Okay, interesting. Can you tell me your name? I’d like to say it; it would be better. Also, could you write to me where you feel you don't know how to set boundaries? That way, we can delve deeper into it. You wrote about carbohydrates; I would like to have more mental resilience and not take to heart someone else's baggage. Amazing, amazing, amazing, amazing, amazing what you're writing here. We will also use this. Naor writes to us about carbohydrates; it sounds small, but it’s very strong. It's great that I feel insecure around people.

Others are great. Oh, this is Nicole. Nicole, you're amazing, truly stunning. Okay, thank you very much, Nicole. Thank you so much for sharing. Keren writes to us that she feels insecure around other people. I want to share with you two very significant shortcomings. Sasha writes that she is okay. Wow, you are all writing amazing things. She struggles to make decisions and has inconsistency in organizing her life through paperwork. Wow, that's very strong. Let's take a moment to remember all these things we're writing, and we will delve deeper into it. I want to share with you two things that are really, really difficult for me about myself, and then...

I will continue to read your comments, so you can keep writing. It is very, very meaningful to me. I will say that there are two traits of mine that I cannot tolerate in myself, and that's why it was so important for me to do this lesson. Tzvika Einav said a very powerful sentence: two traits that I cannot accept in myself and that I struggle with since I can remember, since I was a little girl, until today, are my impulsiveness and my scatterbrained nature.

Impulsiveness is two things that since I was a child I couldn't stand about myself. It was hard for me; I just couldn't deal with it. Now, the fact that I am impulsive manifests in many ways. I'll give you an example: I did, for those who know, I did a project in mathematics and computer science, and I had a friend with whom we studied together. Lauren, my best friend, we would sit together for days and nights, weekends, in the Hebrew University, studying mathematics and computer science, the most intense stuff there is. We really studied together all day, and we were at the same level. It's not like...

Friends study together, and she always used to get 90, while I always got 60. I remember it drove me crazy, as if beyond being envious of her, I told her about it because we were very open. I said, How is it possible that I know as much as she does, and she gets 30 points more than me on the test? The more I delved into this question, the more I realized that I wasn't really reading the questions all the way through. Inside me, there was some kind of little girl saying, I just want to submit already, I want to solve it already, I want it to be over. I really don't have the energy to read the question all the way through. I really don't have the energy.

So, I wasn't paying attention to the details. I wouldn't read things to the end, and I would just submit where it really hit me in the face. Those who know, I worked in high-tech for two years, and they gave me a very, very big task to program in Python and SQL, it doesn't matter. They gave me a task that I was sitting on for five months, day and night. Today, I already knew I was resigning, and still, I continued to work on that task. I don't know, is there something you really hate doing in your life? I don't know, think for a moment about what you really, really...

סונים לעשות. אז תחשבו רגע שהייתי צריכה לשבת חמישה חודשים ולעשות את הדבר שאני הכי שונאת לעשות. אוקי, למה? כי אהבתי את החברה, כי שילמו לי הרבה כסף, כי היו לי הרבה סיבות. הבנתי שאני לא הולכת, אני לא רוצה לחיות ככה. אבל את הדוח, את הדבר הזה, את המשימה הזאת שנתנו לי, אני רוצה לעשות כמו שצריך. ויש יום אחד שאני לא אשכח. אתם מכירים את הרגעים האלה שאתם ממש שונאים את עצמכם? אתם מכירים את הרגעים האלה שאתם כאילו לא משנה מה, ממש קשה לכם לסלוח? תראו, כשאני אמרתי שאני עוזבת את...

The company offered me money to start my own business, as if they had given me gifts worth thousands. They treated me the best in the world because I simply had the most amazing boss. They loved me like crazy, even when I told them I was leaving. They supported me more than anyone else, and it was so important to me to finish on a good note. I remember that moment after five months of being with this paper, when I said to myself that I couldn't do it anymore. I had no strength; I didn't want to do it, I just didn't want to do it. And when I came to submit it, I discovered that I had made a mistake.

I remember that moment. I just clicked on send as if I was simply submitting something I had made a mistake on. I remember the feelings, the days and nights when I left the company. I know I left something there that wasn't right, and all of this was because I couldn't take a step back and say, Wait, let's fix the mistake. The second thing I really hate about myself is that I'm scattered. When I was at university, there was a guy who was my lover for many, many months, and we were kind of together but not really. One day, he came to my house, and the moment he arrived, he said, I don't want to.

I couldn't understand how someone who loved me so much suddenly doesn't want me anymore. After so many years, I feel like now I'm reminded of the phrase Tzvika said: how can this be? We are all people. Everyone here, everyone present, I am sure Nivi, Din, Michal, Ayala, Ilana, and everyone else here have done a lot of personal development work. You've read many books, gone to therapy; some of you are even my patients, so I know you've been to therapy. I've done so many things myself, and I keep asking myself how this is possible.

It makes sense that with all the books I've read, all the treatments I've undergone, all the work I've done, the fact that I've been practicing yoga for 15 years, and teaching yoga for five years, how is it possible that these traits still control me in certain situations in my life? I still find myself being impulsive in certain situations, and I still struggle to organize my thoughts. I want to take a moment to read what you wrote to me. The paperwork bothers me; I feel constrained by the boundaries imposed on me.

In front of people to whom I make mistakes, perfectionism also often causes me to avoid doing things or to compare myself to others, which just frustrates me. Okay, now wait a moment. There is a significant gap between knowledge and action. Naor, what you are saying right now—wow, it really takes us to the next point. So, what is the point? What is the essence of this lesson? Okay, it’s not just to tell you things I don’t like about myself. That’s fine; it’s nice to share, but why am I really saying this? We have been taught to see life in terms of good and bad. If I succeeded and got 100 on the test, and everyone...

They love me, so I'm a good girl. And if I didn't succeed in something, what does success even mean? Then I don't deserve it, and I'm not good enough, neither here nor there. The whole idea of yoga is to rise above everything I label as good or bad and to reach a state that defines things less in that way. What I mean is, Albert Einstein said that if we measure a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life feeling like a failure. If I measure myself by certain criteria, I could live my entire life feeling...

אני כישלון, ואני הרבה מאוד שנים עשיתי טור במתמטיקה. מדי מחשב שעבדתי בהייטק, שם חייתי בתחושה שאני כישלון, אך הייתי בתחושה שאני לא מספיק טובה. עכשיו אני מתחילה להבין שכל מה שחשבתי כל החיים הוא בכלל לא היה נכון. למה אני בכלל מתכוונת? ברוס קליפטון, מי מכם מכיר את ברוס קליפטון? הוא אחד האנשים שהכי שווה להכיר. אז היום בדיוק ראיתי איזשהו מחקר שלו. ברוס קליפטון הוא אחד החוקרים הכי גדולים בתחום של אפיגנטיקה. שאפי גנטיקה זה בעצם אומר...

איך הסביבה שלנו משפיעה על ההתנהגות שלנו, על מי שאנחנו? עכשיו, בשנות ה-70, אנשים היו בטוחים שמה שחורט את הגורל של התא זה ה-DNA שלו. אוקיי, ואז וס קליפטון עשה את הניסוי הבא: תקשיבו רגע, זה הניסוי ששינה לו את החיים. הוא לקח תאים ושם אותם בשלוש צלחות מעבדה שונות, והוא גילה שתאים עם אותו DNA, חלק מהם הם תאי גזע, חלק תאי שומן, וחלק שריר. והוא אמר: איך זה הגיוני? איך זה הגיוני ששלושה תאים עם אותו DNA בעצם נהפכים? הפוטנציאל שלהם, הגורל שלהם, נהיה אחר. אחד שריר, אחד שומן, אחד תא גזע.

Then he realized that there is something else that influences tea, which is not the DNA; there is something else that shapes your fate and essentially determines what you will become in the end, and that is the environment. Then Bruce Lipton, the charming, naive, amazing person, went and told all the professors at the university, Listen, everything we are teaching is wrong. People told him, Leave it, leave it, leave it, and he simply left the university. He said, Everything I taught my students is actually incorrect; I cannot continue to be here. By the age of seven, we are in a state of programming; what does that mean?

In a state of hypnosis, everything our parents tell us seems like the absolute truth. We find ourselves in a kind of state where we simply don't have the analytical mind that we have as adults. We live as beta cells, determining what is right and what is wrong. Essentially, I am made up of all the beliefs of my parents, who themselves are made up of the beliefs of their parents. This means there are lineages upon lineages upon lineages that have instilled so many beliefs in my mind that are not even true.

Today, Naor spoke about changing between what is and what should be. I can also say about myself that there are many things I want to change or want to do but I am not succeeding. Why am I not succeeding? Because the prefrontal cortex, the front part of my brain, is only about 10% active, some say 5%, but between 90% and 95% is essentially my subconscious. These are things I am not aware of; they are rooted in my childhood. The process of releasing limiting beliefs, of letting go of the concept of good and bad, is work that can only be done through coaching. Today, we are in a situation...

There is so much positive content, positive psychology, and research, and everyone is simply talking about the subconscious. But how is it possible that so many people are discussing this, and there is still such chaos? How can this be? Why is this happening? Tell me, I want to hear from you, why is this happening? Why is it that there are millions—I know you have millions of podcasts you want to listen to, you have so many lectures, so many retreats, so much of this, so much of that, and yet there are still patterns within yourselves that you cannot clear? We are not able to.

לנקות שאני לא מצליחה לנקות, איך זה קורה? כי מה בעצם צריך לקרות כדי שנגיע בין המצוי לרצוי? מה צריך לקרות? וואו, סשה כותב כי זה תהליך שנקבל אותם פערי ידיעה ועשייה מדהימים. אז אני רוצה להגיד לכם על זה שני דברים. דבר ראשון, זה אימון. כדי לעבור ממצב של א', סתם נניח שיש לי דפוס שאני מאוד מאוד אימפולסיבית, אז אני רוצה לא להיות אימפולסיבית. אז זה שאני מתרגלת יוגה כל יום או פרניאמה, זה אחד הדברים שהכי הכי הכי עוזרים לאימפולסיביות שלי. אז כל מיני... אז תרגול זה בעצם מה.

שמצמצם את הפער בין המצוי לרצוי, ביוגה מדברים על זה בתור אביסה רגיה. האביסה היא אימון שהוא קבוע ויציב. זאת אומרת, אם אני כל יום הולכת למורה אחר, אם אני כל יום עושה תרגול אחר, אז התרגול שלי משתנה. המיינד שלנו מאוד אוהב גיוון, אבל מה שעוזר לו זה חזרתיות. זה כמו עם כל המיומנויות; אם אני רוצה להנחיל שינוי בטוחי, אני צריכה לחזור על אותו התרגול כל יום. לפי היוגה, סודרה וירגה זה אי השתוקקות. אי השתוקקות זה כמה אני יכולה לא להזדהות עם האימפולס שלי.

Right now, if someone sent me a message and I didn't respond, or with all sorts of things happening, we said something that is a bit deeper. Sasha said something that is a bit deeper, and what Sasha told us now is this: the only way to really change something is to accept it. As long as I don't accept myself as I am, as long as I don't accept my flaws, as long as I push them away from me, I can't truly let them go. Only at the moment—and think about it—I can relate to myself as I, but I really can't.

To refer to myself as a collection of voices within me, and if I consider myself as a collection of voices within me, then I am essentially composed of various types of I. There is the I that wants to be angry, there is the I that is more calm, there is the I that is irritable, and there is the I that understands more. The moment I stop trying to change or silence them and instead want to give everyone a place, and actually listen to them, that is where I create integration within myself. Because what does it mean to connect with myself? Connecting with myself means being able to see all...

The parts within me allow everyone space and help me understand how, instead of being the judge of myself, I become the mediator between the other parts that exist within me. We have been taught that in order to change, we must criticize ourselves, which I believe is a mistake. If you ask me what the number one mistake that we have been taught in Western society is, it is that criticism helps us change. Because of this, I have been telling myself since I was zero, But you are not good enough, but you are not successful enough, but you are not doing enough, but why this way, and why that way, and why this way, and why that way, and why this way. And it never really is.

עובד, מה כן עובד? חמלה, נשימות עמוקות, לתת מקום להקשיב, להתבונן, והכי חשוב זה להבין שלכל אחד מאיתנו, לכל אחד מהאנשים שיושב כאן, יש תפקיד שהוא אחר. ורק ברגע שנקבל את עצמנו כמו שאנחנו וננסה להבין – תכף נעמיק בזה יותר – אבל למה השריטה שלנו היא המתנה שבאנו לתת לעולם, רק אז נוכל להביא את עצמנו למקום אחר. אז כתבתם לי שהבעיה הגדולה היא שיש יותר מדי דרכים ואנחנו מתפזרים במקום ללכת לשיטה אחת ולהתמיד בה. בדיוק, רחל, בדיוק זה! בקל, פסיכולוגי, מקול הטבעי.

Primarily and not in the trivial, we accepted ourselves 100%. Amazing, Rose! Let's go back to my generation, which grew up naturally without a psychologist. We weren't taught much about love and acceptance. The dialogue didn't reach us. A great scratch! So I want us to take a moment to talk about people. Right now, tell me if you see the presentation. Do you see the presentation? Yes? Mark it for me. Great! So how do we actually turn our scratches into a gift that we came to bring into the world? And while we're at it, think about your scratches, because we're going to delve into this shortly. What did you write to me here? Okay, great, thank you, Rose. So I want you to tell me, who is he?

Steve Jobs, the person who founded the company, was dismissed from it. Write me a little general knowledge about the computer company Next, which he established. The company did not succeed in the computer market, and the sales of its first computer were a failure. Does anyone know who this person is? Who is this person who was actually dismissed from the company he founded? Oh, it's Steve Jobs! Great! So, Steve Jobs, what did he develop? The iPhone! Think about what a remarkable person he was. He founded Pixar, which became a successful animation studio, and he turned Apple into one of the largest companies in the world. Now, he essentially...

Think about what it means to start a company. He was fired from the company he founded. Why? Because Steve Jobs had very high standards; he wanted to do things his way. So when he and his partner had various disagreements, he was essentially fired. But the reason he became such a success is that he refused to compromise. There’s someone else who was told she didn’t have what it takes to succeed on television. She faced severe bullying and her first show failed. Do you know who this is? Do you have any ideas? Some of you might know, so please write it down.

לי, והופה, אני רואה את אופרה ווינפרי. סשה, אתה חזק. אז היא באמת א', עכשיו גם אופרה ווינפרי. למה בעצם הסתה שלה? זה מה שהיא באה לתת לעולם. כי אמרו לה גם שהיא לא רזה מספיק כדי להקים את העסק שלה. והעניין הוא שכל השיחות שהיא עשתה עם עצמה בעצם הפכו אותה להיות כל כך רגישה ברמה כזו שבסוף, כשהיא הקימה תוכנית, היא כל כך מבינה את הקהל שלה. וזה מה שגרם לה להיות מצליחה. הוא פותר מעיתון בטן שאין לו מספיק דמיון. חברת ההפקה הראשונה שלו פשטה רגל, והחברות האחרות שלו גם היו פשוטות.

For companies, the leg is strong. Okay, I sound a bit confused, so I’ll take a moment to adjust. I’ll skip the presentation for now and just say, can you hear me better? Yes, please let me know. I just want to highlight the points about the other two. Thank you, Rose. So, Einstein was actually told that he was too deep in thought, and the essence of his work was that he was so profound, which is why he brought us such gifts for humanity. For example, Thomas Edison, who is the one who gave us the electric light bulb.

They actually told us that action is important, right? They told him, Enough, this isn't working, this isn't working, this isn't working. And basically, he says, I didn't fail; I found a thousand ways that don't work. Now, wait, I want us to do an exercise together, and then we'll finish with a writing and meditation exercise, okay? So I want you to help me, and I'm going back to what you said at the beginning. Wait, wait, I want you to help me with myself first, okay? I want you to tell me, what is good about impulsiveness? What are the positive things about impulsive people that you can think of?

You can see within this preparation of impulsiveness that you make decisions quickly, excellent, you make decisions quickly, great, real, wonderful, wonderful, thank you, Rachel. I can tell you, as someone who practices a lot of fasting, that there were many times in my life when I committed to fasting or even a fast for a specific purpose, and I didn't stick to it. For many years, I was angry with myself. I would say, How could you not keep your word? You said you would fast, and you know it's so healthy.

Teaching this, so how do you sort it out until I understood? Until I understood, wait, I'm listening to myself. Wait, I'm being real with myself. So what if I said, Okay, I'm sorry? So what if I made plans with a friend? So what if I did this and that? I'm now listening to what lives in me in the moment, listening to their intuition. The execution is right away. Look, not long ago, Eran Stern is coming here next month. I don't know who here knows him, write to me if you know him. So he offered me to be an assistant at a wonderful retreat he is conducting on something amazing, and I said yes right away. And he...

He told me, What would you say, it's been five days here, you don't need to think about it. I said to him, When it's good, you don't need to think. I can receive very large amounts even without thinking. I can fail because of that in exams, but I can also succeed very well because of it. The second trait I meant was being scattered. What's good about scattered people? Ah, okay, Sasha. I would be happy to hear later what you think. What's good about the trait of being scattered? It's easier, and we don't struggle with it. Okay, intuitive people, great, there's nothing wrong with that. Life is beautiful.

It's easier, right? And I can also say that there’s something that really allows me creativity because when I realized that I’m scattered, there wasn’t room for all the creativity inside me. Okay, the next thing, this is the first time now. Okay, someone wrote to us that I don’t know what I want us to do. I think we will skip the writing for today. We will do an exercise here together and then finish with meditation. And for those who haven't written yet, I want you to write to me. What we will do here together with you, anyone who wants can also share, and we will delve into something.

You're invited to the microphone. Share with me if you want, and I actually want us to take the things you've written and ask what's good about them. So, what's good about someone who doesn't know how to set boundaries? Someone who doesn't know how to set boundaries—what's good about that? She cares about others. That's very nice, right? Someone who doesn't know—she is giving and generous. Perfect, right? Someone who doesn't know how to set boundaries, she really cares about others and she actually wants to do good. Excellent. Now, this is Nicole. Great. Karen wrote to us that she lacks confidence around other people. What could be good about a lack of confidence? Write to me what you think.

The advantages of someone who is insecure and has an interest in being loved include great self-awareness and a willingness to learn. I will also say that there is something in insecurity that embodies a lot of humility. Because if I come from a place of knowing everything and being the smartest, then I am lacking that humility. There is gentleness here, the ability to develop, and amazing humility. Amazing! Karen, look at how many beautiful things they wrote to you! Wow, wow, wow, wow, wow, wow, wow. Perfectionism. Okay, let's go.

נראה מה עוד. מה טוב בפרפקציוניזם? אז גם זה נכון. זה סטנדרטים גבוהים. חשוב לנו שנצליח. קרן כבה שאיפות. מעולה להיות מה זה להיות יקה. מוצרים איכותיים. מעולה, מעולה, מעולה, מעולה, מעולה. יופי. בוא נראה מה עוד. יופי. אוקיי, סבבה. אז ככה, לפני המדיטציה, סיום שלנו. אייק גרמני, נכון? מהמם. לפני היציאה לסיום, אני רוצה רגע לשאול, יש פה עוד מישהו ש... אהה, אוקיי, סשה כותב לנו קושי בקבלת החלטות. מה היתרונות? תכתבו לי, אני רוצה לשמוע אתכם. מה היתרונות במישהו שקשה לו?

לקבל החלטות, אז אני אגיד גם בעיניי שמישהו שקשה לו לקבל החלטות זה מראה בעיניי על הרבה מאוד אכפתיות. נכון, ממש אכפת לי. לא, אני אישה. סליחה, סשה, תודה רבה. אוקי, יסודיות, כותבים לך רצינות מעולה. נכון, מישהי שקשה לה לקבל החלטות, ממש אכפת לה. זה חוכמה, כי היא רואה את כל האפשרויות. נכון, מישהו שהוא אימפולסיבי, אולי כמוני, הוא לא רואה את כל האפשרויות, הוא לא רואה את כל הדברים. מעולה, סשה כותבת לנו, תודה. יופי, יופי. אם יש עוד מישהו שרוצה או לפתוח מיקרופון או לשתף בצ'אט על משהו שהוא לא.

I love myself, and I wonder how else we can see this. I am only saying this before we enter meditation. I also want to say that sharing is important, and it's good to open the microphone. If anyone here wants to speak, please raise your hand; I would really appreciate it. There is something about sharing that truly enables us. I can say that for myself, when I start to share, it suddenly gives me the feeling of, Wow, I'm not alone in this, and it legitimizes my experience and gives it a place. I feel that every time I tried to hide my shortcomings, it was like a child that wasn't wanted.

Listen to him, and then he just knocked on the door harder. Okay, so after the meditation, everything is fine. Come on, so you want meditation now, let's do meditation. So, a calm week. I want you to sit in a comfortable position with a straight back and closed eyes. Excellent. Let's take a deep breath in through the nose. Breathe out. Deep breath in. Breathe out. Let's continue to breathe. Let's feel the sensations we have in our feet, shins, knees, and feel the sensations we have in our thighs.

בתנוחת בית חזה, נשים את הידיים על הלב שלנו. ועכשיו כולנו ביחד מקבלים החלטה לשנה הזו. השנה הזו אני הולך לאהוב את עצמי יותר. השנה הזאת אני הולכת לאהוב את עצמי יותר. ורק נשאל את עצמנו: מה אני עוד לא מקבל בעצמי? מה עוד יש בתוכי שאני לא מצליח לאהוב? נבחר אולי דבר אחד, אולי מעשה אחד שעשינו שכעסנו על עצמנו, מקום אחד שאנחנו מרגישים שהוא מאוד מטורף בתוכנו. וממש נדמיין את עצמנו, לא משנה אם אנחנו בני 20, 30, 50 או 70, נדמיין את עצמנו בתור ילדים קטנים. ממש אולי אפילו ניקח.

What a childhood picture we have! Look at this little girl who may have done something we didn't like. Why is it okay that you did that? Why does it make sense that you did that? Maybe it's time, maybe this is actually the tree, to forgive ourselves, to tell ourselves that just as I am, it is good. I am complete; I lack nothing. All that remains is to love myself. Let's take a moment in this place and think about what actions I can take this year that can help me love myself more. How can this year be the year you become your own best friend? How can this year turn you into...

To be your number one fan, we have been taught to criticize ourselves and to judge. But if we think about what drives people away from each other, it’s just judgment and criticism. If there’s someone who is your friend and they criticize you all day, do you feel comfortable being with them? So why not say goodbye? And how do we allow ourselves to continue judging ourselves? Perhaps it’s time to part ways with judgment and criticism. Maybe it’s time to turn fear into love, judgment into compassion, and self-criticism into an opportunity for growth and development. Let’s think about one thing that we truly wish for.

Next year, I want something to come that will connect us as a collective consciousness. It can be personal or collective, something we would like to happen, an inhale, an exhale, an aspiration to develop. We will finish with a song. Today, I will share its story, and then we will conclude. Meanwhile, I would love to hear your thoughts for the new year, and then we will truly finish. For those who want to stay for sharing, I would be very happy to hear. I just want to mention that this is a song from a time when I really struggled with myself, didn't love myself, and couldn't look at myself.

A time when everything fell apart for me. This is a song I used to listen to every morning without realizing it. Now, I share it with you in class, before all the kids and the teacher. Almost, almost, almost, I fell deep into a pit of shame. But just before I started to fall, I suddenly felt a sensation and remembered exactly, just like I am now. It's good that I am whole; I lack nothing, and it is allowed for me to love myself. Yesterday, in the neighborhood, we played soccer, but when everyone divided into teams, no one wanted me. Everyone turned away. Almost, almost, almost, I fell deep into a pit of shame, but just before I started to fall.

הרגשתי פתאום הרגשה ונזכרתי שבכלל לא חסר בנו דבר. תודה רבה, שבוע נ תודה רבה. כל הערב ציירתי ציור לאמא שלי. חול, חזרה, נראיתי לאמא. הספרתי, ברור, כששונה מתום, בורכת ומפתחת לכולם. כמעט, כמעט, כמעט נפלתי לתוך פור של בושה, אבל רגע לפני שהתחלתי ליפול, הרגשתי פתאום הרגשה ונזכרתי שדווקא כמו שאני, ככה זה טוב. אני שלמה, לא חסר בי דבר, ומותר להיות איך שאני. השיר נקרא, אני אשלח לכם אותו מחר גם. בדיוק, בדיוק כמו שאני, ככה זה.

Well, I truly wish for all of us abundance, light, love, and luck in all areas. Let's remember that just as we are, it is good that we are whole and lack nothing. All that remains is for us to love this. So thank you very much to everyone; I really enjoyed being here with you. Amen, amen, amen, amen. Thank you, Nicole. Thank you very much. Thank you, Sisi. Thank you all. May we have a wonderful week. Is there anyone here who wants to share? By the way, I need to go, but if anyone wants to share, I would be happy to hear. I want to share, yes. While you were doing that...

The meditation, so you said, imagine you are children and something happened to you. I remember an event that even made me cry. I remember an event when my aunt bought me a lot of dolls. And I'm sorry, I am very impulsive, okay, very sensitive today. When I was really a child, I forgot all the dolls outside my house. I left them all out there in such innocence and went inside. Then my mom asked me, Where are all your dolls? I told her I left them outside so they could sit and watch the view. Then she said, Yes, and then she...

She told me, You don't leave toys outside like that; they will get stolen. Then I ran outside, and I no longer saw the dolls; they had been stolen from me. And actually, what I experienced in the meditation was that there is so much negativity outside, but the soul is so innocent and so pure, you know? And how do you manage to maintain your purity when there is so much evil outside? You also spoke about being critical, and coincidentally, I went through so much criticism today, I was critical of myself because I felt it as a burden.

Such, but still, like you know, there are people with their lessons and their things, and how do you manage to keep your center without being affected by the chaos? It's not simple. Nicole, thank you very much for the emotional, honest, and beautiful sharing. It truly is a very moving sharing. So first of all, I want to thank you, and you know, everything that comes up arises to be released. I believe that the first step is really just to give space, like you are doing now, which is amazing. Just giving space to all the pain because what I experience is that sometimes the pain...

We just need the space. We just need to listen to him, to give him love, to embrace him, and not to judge him. You know, many times when I was experiencing joy in life, I would tell myself, Come on, you've cried enough. Come on, you've done enough. Get up, come on. Until I understood that, wait, wait, I'm not rushing myself. That's how I was taught, like, Come on, next, next. No, no. And I realized how long it would take to free myself from this, how long. I would tell myself, Just give me some time.

שצריך, אז דבר ראשון שאני רוצה להגיד זה, אפשר על דברים שהם כביכול בסדר. אנשים יכולים להגיד, בסדר, גנבו לך את הבובה. לא, אבל עבורך זו הייתה חוויה טראומטית, כי את ילדה תמימה, יפה ומתוקה, שחושבת שהבובה שלה מתצפת, ובכלל לא עלה על דעתך אפשרות כזו. ובגלל זה זה כל כך טראומטי, כי בעצם מתי הטראומה נוצרת? באופן כל כך חזק שהמציאות שלא מצפים לה, מה שלא מצפים לו, בדיוק שהמציאות נהיית כל כך שונה מתוך הציפייה שלנו. אז קודם כל, אני חושבת...

It's amazing, like it shows something about this, and I think we all go through many processes of development and try to be, you know, I think there's something in the innocence of children that is the closest thing to the Creator. There's a saying, Where is your God? and I feel that in a way, perhaps they are trying to take our innocence away from us and telling us to be suspicious. But there is something in that place where your intention was so pure and so beautiful. So, okay, we learn to be cautious and we learn, but...

But I think that if I were to do something, it would really be to take a picture of myself as a little girl. Many times when it's hard for me to forgive myself for things, I say to myself, That's not your child. Then I take a picture of myself when I was really sweet, around five or six. I would really take a picture of you as a child too. If you go back, how would you talk to that girl? And why would you tell her how okay she is? I would tell her, Wow, Nicole, how sweet you are, how amazing you are! How you just wanted to put the dolls in the bathtub and explain to her why...

כל כך בסדר, כי הרבה פעמים אוהבים להגיד לנו למה שוכחים להגיד לנו למה אנחנו כל כך בסדר שעשינו את זה. אז תודה רבה, ניקול, על השיתוף הזה. ממש תודה לך, גלי. אם יש עוד מישהו שרוצה לשתף, אז זה הזמן. החשיפה זה הריפוי, לגמרי, לגמרי. ממש יפה, זה ריפוי ווקי. אז תודה רבה לכולכם ושיהיה לכם ערב מקסים. וגם שננו, א רושים, תודה רבה לכולכם.

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