The Journey of Human Experience and Spiritual Growth

Humans are addicted to their experiences, often losing track of their true essence through countless lifetimes.

### The Journey of Becoming Human: Understanding Our Existence and Experiences
* 🔍 The text begins by exploring the **curiosity surrounding our existence** and the process of **becoming human**, starting with an encounter with a mysterious figure named Ed, who serves as the **entry director for human experiences**.
* 🌌 Ed explains that to become human, one must **recognize the existence of time and space** and **shut off their present memories** to generate human consciousness.
* 🧭 As the protagonist expresses a desire to **experience humanity without the intention of staying**, Ed informs them that they will be **on their own to make decisions** once they enter human life.
* 📜 The process involves selecting a gender and an entry point into the human experience, with various locations available, including **long waitlists** in places like New York or **instant access** in Africa.
* 👶 Ultimately, the protagonist is born into a **challenging environment**, symbolizing the **start of their life journey**, filled with experiences that **shape their identity and consciousness**.
* 🔄 As they navigate through life, the protagonist realizes they become "**human junkies**," addicted to the human experience, often desiring to **return for unfinished business** or experiences they missed.
* 🌱 The narrative emphasizes the importance of **self-discovery and understanding one's past lives**, illustrating how these experiences contribute to the **current identity and emotional landscape**.
* ✨ The text concludes by suggesting that individuals are part of a **collective journey of retrieving lost aspects of themselves**, as they seek to **integrate their experiences** and ultimately achieve a **greater understanding of their existence**.

We ask how and why did we get here? This is the thing that is a subject of great curiosity to say the least. Well, let's take a typical one, but not the most important one here. You, we are moving on here and we hit that part of that radiation.

And we smell it, taste it. What's that? So we move in a little level over here to another, we get another taste of it. You see, you know, that's really interesting. I wonder what that is and what that's like. So you're trying to figure a way where you

can move in here because it's getting pretty strong stuff and sticky and this kind of thing. So you're very cautious and at that particular moment as you're contemplating, you're perceiving all this in here with great curiosity. All of a sudden, this big

man, man wouldn't, that's a misnomer, a he, she, that's more like it, uh appeared. It's, what do you want? And you say, oh well, what's that down there? He says, that's humans. And you say, well, can I go closer? And he says, well

not unless you be human. He said, well, I'll be human. He said, you, what? Well, I'd like to be human. And he says, well, I suppose you could if you really wanted to. And you say, well, how do I do it? He says, well, just call me yet incidentally I'm the

entry director and just so you can call me Ed for short. He said, oh, yes, Ed, okay. He says, the first thing you have to do in order to be human, you say, and you say, oh, don't misunderstand, I just want to get a taste, assemble, and zoom in and

Zoom out, that's all. I don't want to stay there. Oh no, I wouldn't think of staying there. And that's just a taste, you know, just a little sip. And then looks at you, says yes, yes, I understand. So what do you do in that process?

He says the first thing that you need to do in order to be human is recognize that time and space exists. You say, well, somehow I perceive it. There it is. He says, well, what you perceive is only part of it. There's a lot more to it than

that. He says, well, you say, well, I'll take my chances. He says, well, the other part is that you have to recognize uh that when you become human that you have an important thing you must do in order to be human. You say, what's that? He says, 

well, you have to have shut off all of your present memory and your present self, otherwise you can't generate this, this human consciousness. You say, oh sure, I can pick it up when I get out. And he says, yeah, yeah. And he says the other thing is

that you just, you are really on your own because that's what that is down there. Is that people are on their own. Those who come in and become human, uh, make supposedly their own decisions. You say, oh, I'll make my own decisions. He said, yeah, yeah.

So he said, now if you really want, we can set it up. You're saying, oh sure, I've got to go with this. All right, first thing you got to do is, what do you want? Do you want to be male or female? And you look and say

What's that? He says never mind. He says, "Can I select for you?" Oh yeah, you tell me which way. All right, fine. It says the next thing is that you have to make a decision where you want your entry point to be. And he says, "Um, that's a decision that you have to make."

Because the kind of problems, he says, for example, in in on Park Avenue in New York, there's a waitlist line, a long waitlist time to get there. Can't get in Marion County, California, long line. That kind of stuff. And he says, "Beverly Hills, almost impossible. See, but he says we've got plenty of fast takers, say in Africa, instant service, you get in right away. South America, the same thing, easy, no problem. And uh, he says, and then I can just really ring it. And you say, well, uh, that first one you said it sounds pretty interesting, but you say it's waitlisted."

Uh, he says, "Yeah, yeah, Park Avenue, forget it, but in New York." He says, "But you say what if it's New York and it's close to that wait listing? Isn't there any place in New York I can get it?"

And he thinks, "This is yes, I can get you in as a matter of fact, pretty quickly. Uh, just right now, right? Just wait and see. You see, that's fine. You're right. Is all right. You got to be careful now. Remember you're on your own." He says, "Oh, I can make it. [Music] So he says, okay, you agreed, sign the contract. He's okay, fine, click, I sign. So he takes you and he goes and you go, we will bang. And at that bang, you look very closely if one were he were there and they would see."

it I can make it [Music] so he says okay you agreed sign the contract he's okay fine click I sign so he takes you and he goes and you go we will bang and at that bang you look very closely if one were he were there and they would see

a little newborn blue newborn baby squalling and screaming not hearing the screams to let me out of here let me out of here but just a screaming baby newly born lying in the broken glass the garbage and the dust and the dirt on the landing of a fifth floor walk up

in the Bronx while the thirteen-year-old mother having just given birth is hurrying down the stairs to get away and so one begins life here the thing that happens after that is where the action really starts you go through that life process and the symbology could have been have been

a hundred thousand years ago the whole symbology is still the same and you make your exit and you start out again now originally your intent was to take your escape velocity and go on out and continue wherever you were intending to go or whatever you intended to do

but right about here somewhere you begin to bend a little bit the reason is that as you made this process through here in what we call physical life you picked up a greater load factor than you realized unconsciously you picked up that load factor and you

had friction which slowed you up the combination of those two is expressed in the bending of that for you no one else no law nothing else makes the decision when you said how many times I got to go back there's just something I wanted to do and I didn't get a chance

to do it I wanted to have five children instead of two and I got to go back and have three more children or some such thing or I never got to drink alcohol I'd like to go back and drink some booze whatever the reason and you say oh just say to yourself just

once that's all and then I'll go on my way and so you begin that turn to make just once more one little more run just one more for the road or whatever and at that moment that decision which was yours and no one else's no law no rule

just you you lost your escape velocity and you went into orbit in this area and you went down and around again had another life and as you came out of that you still were as in essence above this line so you were recognized still from whence you came

you came up around in here and you made another decision having lost more velocity having picked up an additional load factor you're here and you say oh it won't hurt to go back once more and I've always always wanted to ride a camel so you decide to go back and ride

and own a camel so round you go again and go through the process here and again you are steadily losing velocity and your orbit is decaying as you can see once you get below this line of demarcation as it were you're thinking more about here than you

are about there your memory of you as you originally were is declining because of the overwhelming input from this human radiation so down you go again for another life another one another one another until you get to this point where you're locked in and you have

little even in between life sojourns you have little if any perception of this radiation from which you came there's a word for that which I probably have already used that fits it very very accurately and that word is we're all have become

Human junkies, we're addicted to being human and the human experience, most importantly the what, the real, uh, uh, I'll put it in our modern jargon, the most attractive advertising for this being human, bar none, and which attracts most if the highest percentage and the majority

of those who come to be human is to meet a graduate of this particular compressed learning school, a graduate of the being human experience is, uh, I have to be unequivocal about it, is a is a god in other energy systems, and you have to think of it that way.

is a god in as we term god, put it that way, and remember, uh, our concepts of god from one perspective are is very much a local traffic type of perception, but there it is, is that that's once you meet a graduate of this particular system

truly a graduate, then in turn you, and probably have said to yourself, I will do anything a thousand times, a hundred thousand times, whatever if I can be like that graduate, and that's exactly the important thing because a graduate is much on the order of what we perceive to

be a super something, and the availability of that being and where the those graduates go and be is something that we will not get into tonight, but it becomes obvious that they are no longer interested in local traffic, so I can I can just hear the radiation of

all of you that you're saying, what about us, where are we, are we locked in wrong? You are those, and I can give you a number of different descriptions, but, and you can figure out the acronym when I say you're the essayers, s periods.

who have begun the recycling where you in turn have begun to work yourself out more and more, in other words you're on your way out. You have begun to achieve a deeper and deeper orbit, that's who you are, step by step, laboriously, lifetime after

lifetime, you have begun to accumulate or re-establish escape velocity. My best guess, and it's only a guess because it's so hard to measure, that most gateway graduates are up in here sometime. In other words, they are on the verge, not of achieving escape velocity, but way

up here on what I call the last timer rule. I see you as those who, when they make their exit from this sojourn, this time, will get into this last sojourn spot of contemplation or thinking about what will be my last run in. You are a

last timer to be. So what that role is, that you will play for the last time, is something that you will decide, not now, but where you are in this contemplative non-physical state. And I might add that some have stayed there for thousands of years.

And I say that in a very funny way because that is out of time, but by our concept, they would have stayed there for thousands of years. And you have some very, very, some very, very fascinating options, knowing that our recorded history is this limited, when the span of human history

is about 10 to 20 times that long at least. So that gives you an idea of what your options are, and your options don't uh become limited to the future, they're all up and down that span of human existence. Fascinating, great opportunities, think what fun you

can have you know so that is where you are how you are where you are and it again has something of extreme interest and what I need to do then is show you why some of those things are in that way and how that relates to you and this is

interesting in that it will help you begin to perceive you as you really are you're in 21 and this is the opportunity for you to play We all like the tendency to move outward and perceive externals One of the key things today tonight that I think you can do is know yourself

first because that's what I had to do in going back and looking under the hood as it were of what I am now I can tell you what I found I found first of all in instead of I instead of in 21 and rolling this way

and put it in it's a crude way but it's the best I can do I rolled this way inside and moved inward and it took weeks and months to get this piece by piece knowledge information or whatever but what I began to find first of all

was a catalog uh uh being continually updated on every possible part of me my experience my emotions my activities whatever it was a memory bank if you want to put it that way a life history recording of me and you could go up and down that whole life

history Another way of putting it is is it is as if we are all operating a computer workstation here if you can think of it that way and that's a mainframe and you're feeding the mainframe with all this data and you're offloading it over

here and what might be called short-term memory, water, but that's all the permanent feed up there and uh it's all anything that you know or think you are or hide from, it's all this all open, but it's you. You look at it, it's so clean

and so beautifully organized that it's fun to get to know the real parts of you by hitting that mainframe that is a part of that whole thing of you. This is all you. This is the point, not anywhere else, not in some wild universe. This is you.

moving inward to that another layer which is a busy place as it were, and I watched with great amusement that there's it is a an emotional layer, and this is the layer of all the emotions you're constantly accumulating, and there's a mechanism being that

shoveling them off somewhere like this joint joint, it's like a uh conveyor belt that's throwing it out this way while your life is dumping it in here. It's very interesting, I and I found out later of course that's the way it looks, but it's actually sorting it

out and classifying the different types of emotion. So then moving in this taking it took a long time to get past these fascinating things, and then there is this intellectual level layer, and getting into that and that was a lot of familiar things, but there again it was

knowledge that I had no knowledge I had that information which is fascinating and totally, and I spent weeks and months in there. It's again like a system of cataloging here was a uh, and I looked at it, and and different people look at it in different ways, but I looked at it

as a huge huge uh uh carpet of flowers is the best way I can put it but each flower was a life experience a life personality and I looked at these thousands of flowers and said come on wait a minute I've been all of these and

over here is a laugh chuckle I said sure kid sure what'd you expect and here's this mass of different textured radiating vibrant things and this uh this pattern of it's it's how to describe it it's indescribable except it's like a huge

family feel like brothers and sisters aunts and uncles has that kind of only much closer and there's this total inner communication with all these in the sense that that they know you and as you begin to work and go touch one of the flowers which you soon find out as a face

boy and the the joy that you have finally recognized this and that was reflected in I look and I say so this is what it's all about this is what I am all of these these life personalities all of these lifetime experiences and I then said and that

that's what it is and I finally have made that understanding that brilliant thing and this voiceover says well it took you long enough and then I found out much more about what I now call the eye there of me and take the hyphen out and it becomes the

it of me and the it of which I am and it is I is indeed composed of literally and nobody really bothers to count it in my it cluster uh how many lives I we have lived but it's somewhere above 2000 and that's that I figure is enough

and they don't, nobody buys it. It says go find out for yourself and I don't want to go over there and count all these different things, nobody does. So we don't know, but as the need arises, and uh there is sort of a like an executive committee as it were, how

these are, I have no idea, my ex, I am whatever that selects a, a number of life personalities to form a new one and descend down for or insert into a an earth life sojourn, and mine was selected for a very specific, from specific life experiences

to live in the century of the fire wagons, in other words uh this 20th century when uh we were using explosions to do things with instead of the other means of doing things, to live that 20th century, and I got to know them, I suspected something like

this but didn't understand it, and these are the clusters that are sent in, in my case, and this is the thing you all go find this out for yourself, this is available to you all, this mess of, of historical experience you now are in the position popping into

21 and go to 21 and turn left and there it is, and that is not only your own life experience but all of this massive, I mean, present life experience but all this mass of others, I assure you there's nothing that you can think or be

or feel or be emotional about that you haven't experienced at least 50 to 100 times before, and you go through the catalog, you say well uh fine, I've lost my love, my lover, what, oh, and you go down to you and you'll find all these ones, well I

Did this here, did this here. Oh, this is pretty good. I'll use that. You see, it's like a catalog of yourself, and it's your own personal catalog. My earliest life experience was at least that I can find, and it didn't... there may be another

is a hundred and fifty thousand years ago, if I can measure it by our time. See, our recorded history is a little small segment, and that's the thing you've become so fascinated with. How could human history be that small when there's so much of it

and it's all there. You can go play in it, and yeah, I can tell you that is probably the most important fun you can have in your life because it's also so very useful. My it is continuously busy as all other its are, is retrieving parts

of life personalities that have been lost for one reason or another. So you see that was the design. They got lost. They're lost in the BS territories, and they're supposed to come back to the end. You see that to you're it, nobody else's but yours.

The eye there, and what happens is that your it and my it, everyone's are constantly cruising these BS territories to retrieve life personalities of each of us that has gotten lost or are locked into one of these territories, and they're retrieving them and bringing them back

to the end. You know what? That's what they're all doing, and this is what you're doing. And you find out again, I'm being so dogmatic, go find out, and what it is, your it is doing, is collecting all of these so that you in turn

can take off and we can out and that's how I found out about that because I began to discover and you'll discover it that your it has adjoining it's all bonded to it you are a part of a bonding system that I am 86 sure that you are within this bonded cluster

of its that of which I am a part and what we're doing is that we are gathering all of the parts of us together each individual like you you've got some that are lost in various belief systems and you there's a constant flow of retrieving those and getting them stuck

back in they're parts of you uh that I can give you a classic one that you know about already having gone this far gateway is that Miranda is attempting to retrieve Shea who is here and that's his connection is he's a 10

he's a a retriever trying to pull Shea back into their it clusters so that they can move on and we can out and go in another direction and we'll get to that tomorrow night so have a good time in 21.

Reincarnation  Theory   -   Robert A.  Monroe

Apollonian Light 

Curiosity about origins and a journey into a strong, sticky radiation.

Encountering the radiation and a desire to understand it.

A being ('Ed') appears and offers to help become human.

The first step to becoming human: recognizing time and space.

The need to shut off present memory and self to generate human consciousness.

Making independent decisions as a human and choosing gender and entry point.

Choosing entry point and the human experience

Different entry points with varying wait times (e.g., Park Avenue, Africa).

Birth into a challenging environment and the beginning of life.

The cyclical nature of life, death, and rebirth.

The concept of 'escape velocity' and the accumulation of 'load factor' hindering it.

The cycle of reincarnation and loss of escape velocity

Repeated life cycles due to unfinished business or desires.

Gradual loss of velocity and decaying orbit, leading to addiction to the human experience.

Becoming 'human junkies' and the allure of the human experience.

Graduates of the human experience and their significance

Graduates of the human experience are considered 'gods' in other energy systems.

The aspiration to become like graduates and their detachment from 'local traffic'.

The speaker identifies the audience as 'essayers' working towards escape velocity.

Most gateway graduates are on the verge of achieving escape velocity, referred to as 'last timers'.

Understanding the self through inward exploration

Importance of self-knowledge and inward exploration.

Discovering a catalog of personal experiences, emotions, and activities.

The analogy of a computer workstation and mainframe containing all personal data.

Exploring emotional and intellectual layers, and a catalog of life experiences.

The 'it' of self, composed of numerous life personalities, and the selection process for new lives.

The 'it' cluster and retrieval of lost life personalities

Clusters of life personalities sent for specific experiences and the vastness of personal history.

Accessing a catalog of past experiences to utilize in the present.

The continuous retrieval of lost life personalities from 'BS territories'.

The ongoing process of collecting lost parts of oneself for eventual departure.

The bonded cluster of 'its' working together to gather lost parts.